Geri D' Fyniz

Lyrics

I'm right on the edge
Of just losing it
Feels like a challenge
I can't shake
PTSD got me so paranoid
Sometimes I feel like
I'm going insane

(VERSE)
It's all up in your head
Is what I keep saying
That don't change the fact
I see it up in my real life
This type drama
Make you wanna
Pop pills
Cause think
That ya gotta flee somehow
I'm not the one
To run & hide
Got hella pride
Look the definition up
And my face
Right by it
But All dez
Mental health attacks
Got me in a bind
I'm Sick and tired
Of being sick and tired
I'm forced to keep a straight face
Gotta stay strong
Fear can't live here
Too many type of demons are waiting
Up on my focus to break
And plus this shit been real nigga
I'm forced to stay in soldier mode
It's kill or be killed
That scared forgiveness talk
Will get your cap peeled
If you spit out your lips
Might as well slit wrist
In my opinion
They both one in the same
Random thoughts
Running loose in my brain
But I don't need no medication
To contain them
What I need
Matter fact I gone say
I just keep that between me and bae
Overall I just wanna see some brighter days
Tired of leaving out the house
With all this extra weight
But I know dez extra ounces
Gonna Keep me safe
So I suck it up and keep them ready
Just in case

(Bridge)
Lord knows that I'm tired of living this way
But it's all about survival and I can't fade
This pressure on me weigh a ton
But I can't break
You won't know about the pleasure
Till you felt pain

(Hook) 2x

(Verse)
It's was all up in my dreams
Then I woke up
Told myself I wanted
More than existence
Sabotaging all my own little progress
Cause I was using my own mind
As a weakness
I know my worse opponent
Is me
Cause I'm tough as shit
Don't let up a little bit
And That's mad ridiculous
The level of criticism
I place upon myself
Has me thinking at times
If this shit is even healthy
That won't stop me
Cause this world that we live is evil
Prepping myself everyday just for anything
Cause I know it could probably lethal
And When it comes to legal
I'm more focused on surviving
your life against mine
Better believe I ain't dying
Ain't no sense of me lying
I Live this shit everyday
Instead of taking it easy
I keep my head in the game
Ready at any given time
To jump my ass in the fray
I won't throw my hands up
I'mma let this choppa spray
bet my life on what I say
I aint taking shit back
No drop of cowardice in me
Ready to get some shit crackin
And this ain't me braggin
Or living life a knucklehead
When I tell you I'm never scared
I mean it
I'm well prepared
They wanna silence all the truth
And want us docile
They want Black Men sissified
The Warrior Class ain't dead


(Bridge)
Lord knows that I'm tired of living this way
But it's all about survival and I can't fade
This pressure on me weigh a ton
But I can't break
You won't know about the pleasure
Till you felt pain

(Hook) 2x